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Dire Situation

1 Name: Anonymous 2018-08-13 21:10
Hello programmers!

Here is my situation... I am currently learning Java for Android programming but it is causing me many headaches. I want to make stupid simple games for stupid simple people so that I can make some money. But the problem is that I realize that I am quite stupid myself. I can't seem to wrap my head around programming for Android if I try it causes headaches. On top of that I get distracted easily.

I am not a complete noob programmer though. I started with C and I enjoy it very much but I need to make some money since my current living situation (my mother and father) is going down the toilet that's why I decided to go with Java and Android but I realize now that that might not be a good idea after all for me.

So, I am wondering if I should continue on learning Java and Android or should I stick with C and Allegro to make a game. The end goal is money basically. I hold the thought that Android would be easy money but I might be wrong. Right now I am considering dropping Java and Android and resume making my game in C with Allegro.
2 Name: Anonymous 2018-08-14 02:55
I don't know how you can use Allegro and C for Android if you don't even understand how to use the Android API in Java. I will predict that you are simply not educated enough to do any kind of Android programming.
3 Name: Anonymous 2018-08-14 03:43
>>2
I won't be building for Android if I am using Allegro. I'll be making it for windows and linux only. The reason why I even dabbled in Android development was that I thought it would be a easy way to make money clearly that wasn't the case for me. I've decided already to just continue making my game in C with Allegro and release it for windows and linux when it's finished.

Is it just me or does Java make things too complex? I don't know that was my first time programming in a Object Oriented language and it was not my cup of tea at all. Maybe I'll go back to it when my life is more stable.

My highest education is High School. I have autism and severe social anxiety. But still I need to make an income soon because my parents are not going to tolerate me for long.
4 Name: Anonymous 2018-08-18 06:53
So we have two main issues here: your social skills and your living situation with your parents.

You are starting your life and you have to live the rest of your life somewhere. If you're capable of living off the land as a wild man, then you don't need social skills as you're capable of surviving without any help of people. I'm assuming that you want to live in modern society with modern conveniences; so if you intend to live in society, then you must interact with society. My advice is that you need professional help with your social skills and with the management of your mental condition. The best way to change yourself is to learn directly from a professional who is trained to deal with your kind of mentality i.e. a clinical psychologist.

I don't know what kind of social services are available for you that offer this kind of rehabilitation within your country; I'll assume that this ideal option is not available for you. The next best advice is to train yourself with lessons taught indirectly from the professionals. You can find many kinds of lessons about self-improvement on the Internet and also within paper books. Here are the topics you should study in no particular order:

habits - how they work, how to change bad habits and how to consciously train good habits;
accepting mistakes, identifying them and learning from mistakes;
the art of introspection and the art of consciously controlling your emotions;
physical education and learning how to improve your fitness;
body communication - the art of interpreting the meaning of a person's structure and movements;
the science of autism - learn the characteristics of your specific disorder (there is a spectrum of neurodevelopmental disorders) and how it compares to a healthy neurotypical person

I know the range topics are wide, but these are topics that most people learn unconsciously. Since you have a disorder in your mental development, you will need to learn these topics consciously and you will need to practice them consciously. Make no mistake, these are skills that take years of practice so I recommend starting sooner rather than later.

Now moving on to your living situation. I assume your parents are fed up with your mental state and providing for your care. Normally I would say you should move out and get an easy to find job but that's not going to happen given your current state. I'm thinking that maybe you should make this your goal, to be able to live independently in your own place paid by yourself from money working in a normal job. If this is possible for you, then I would suggest bargaining with your parents for some time to improve yourself with that eventual goal of moving out by a certain time limit. So rather than using your time to write a game that people are willing to buy, maybe you could use that time to improve yourself.
5 Name: Anonymous 2018-08-21 02:20
>>4
Thanks for writing that it means a lot. I was offline working on the game. I do want to see a psychologist but we can't afford it. I realize long ago that my mental problems are a big obstacle for me but I have laid out a plan already. I have thought through this plan many times. The plan is basically to become financially secure. Once I achieve financial success I can start the process of reintegrating myself into normal society.

The problem right now that is of pressing concern is my parents. My father hates me because I am a failure. My mother is usually neutral but sometimes sides with my father. They like to point out that they have raised me but I have given them nothing in return. It angers me greatly because I never asked them to create me with their inferior low quality genes. But they refuse to entertain that thought. For them it's all about me me me me me.

My well being right now lies on my ability to make money. If I can earn some money however small from my game(s) then the immediate effect would be a boost in my confidence. If I can continue to earn more and more money then the short term effect would be my parents getting off my back since I can then give them the money. Now the biggest IF would be that I somehow out of sheer luck achieve financial success then I can move out and begin the process of reintegrating into normal society.

It feels like a dream, a dream that I can never make into reality. But I may as well try, if it all ends badly then I will still have the choice of committing suicide.

Thanks again for replying.

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